I don’t even know myself anymore.

I don’t know if I’ll continue this blog anymore. 

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This may be my last post here, I guess.

Sometimes I cannot find more time to elaborate further everything I post here and school is the one to be blamed for.

This post may stand as an example. I want to type more shit here but our homework in MAPEH is constantly pulling me away. Anyway, I sucked big time in our Chapter Test in Trigonometry. I hope my teacher won’t regret believing so much in my slowly fading Math skills.

Ugh. Someone tell me what’s the use of finally getting familiar with India’s Damn Music History?

Thank you, dear friend, for holding on and believing in me - by the way, your uplifting words were greatly appreciated.

I was not alone at all.

It’s sort of late to still be working on our website in ICT. I still haven’t finished a single thing on my to-do list. All the blame is on the cozy weather for pushing me under the sheets of my bed and the cold breezes singing me angelic lullabies to sleep. 

The sound of the rain’s downpour seems calming. Instead of panicking for tomorrow’s loads of school work, my mood became settled just because of the sweet whispers of the weather. Let me call this a night.

I feel happy because it’s Friday and I can sleep for more than 10 straight hours. Let me start my dreamy journey.

I won’t care if no one can understand me, as long as I can still grasp something from what I am thinking or even if I can’t make any sense at all.

It’s hard, you know. It’s difficult to act like you’re fine with everything. It’s hard to smile and put aside your worries. It’s hard to hold back the pain that creeps inside and just do nothing.

But I won’t mind anyway. Let me just steer away from everything to make sure I’ll survive a day.

I am insane, I guess. I feel so confused and lost. I feel like blood is about to automatically burst out from my empty head. But upon seeing my clear red blood, I guess I’ll faint right away. I am talking to people with no ears. I don’t want to go to school anymore. I am being tortured by pressure. Lend me some sanity, perhaps?

I just feel so insane and stupid. I don’t deserve someone to listen to my foolish words that’s why I have this blog.